Public Speaking

So, yesterday fourth hour I did my first speech for RLC Speech class. Our speeches were self-introductory speeches, so in other words, it was about me.

Im one of those people who has a hard time opening up about myself to other people. I hide my emotions so well, whether im sad or slightly annoyed or pissed off or w/e. The only people I have ever been able to open up to are my very best friends so it was difficult. Like, my knees were knocking and my hands were shaking and i was sweating. I could hear my voice waver and there was a big knot in my stomach. I thought i was gonna cry. It was terrible.

The people who know me best will be surprised by this, because to them im loud and opinionated and never shut up. They will think that that speech shouldve been easy, but no. Public speaking terrifies me. To the core.

But, after i was done, everybody told me i did fine and that they couldnt tell i was nervous at all, so i guess that makes me feel better. But it was scary. Freaking scary.

Ill do better next time.

<3-amandamichelle