Public Speaking

So, yesterday fourth hour I did my first speech for RLC Speech class. Our speeches were self-introductory speeches, so in other words, it was about me.

Im one of those people who has a hard time opening up about myself to other people. I hide my emotions so well, whether im sad or slightly annoyed or pissed off or w/e. The only people I have ever been able to open up to are my very best friends so it was difficult. Like, my knees were knocking and my hands were shaking and i was sweating. I could hear my voice waver and there was a big knot in my stomach. I thought i was gonna cry. It was terrible.

The people who know me best will be surprised by this, because to them im loud and opinionated and never shut up. They will think that that speech shouldve been easy, but no. Public speaking terrifies me. To the core.

But, after i was done, everybody told me i did fine and that they couldnt tell i was nervous at all, so i guess that makes me feel better. But it was scary. Freaking scary.

Ill do better next time.

<3-amandamichelle

I Think I Found It

The Star Wars Holiday Special circa 1978. Brandon is going to "steal" it from Nate and send it to me. Hats off to him. Hes so my hero.

<3-amandamichelle

Life As A Procrastinator/Dead Poet Society/Adventures In Chem Class

Ive discovered i need help with my procrastination problem. You see, I need to study for my Trig test tomorrow, but im probably not going to tkae my stuff home because i dont want to study. I need to finish my master application for Jilg tomorrow, but i probably wont bring it home becasue i dont feel like doing it. We have been in the library all week in both fourth (speech) and seventh (english) hours, working on a self-awareness speech and a literary analysis paper both due next week. I have not started either one. I plan on doing them this weekend. But then again, ive been planning to start eating less and working out more since before Christmas, but i never remember this on sundays and im really OCD about certain things to where i always have to start long term things on mondays (beginning of the week) or it bugs me, so needless to say i havent started yet. This procrastination thing is getting out of hand, but i keep putting off getting help. Ironic, huh?...

Anyone seen the movie Dead Poet Society? If not, watch it. Then you will understand when i say that i really want to stand up on my chair right now and say "Oh captain, my captain". Im so tired that im to the point of being loopy now so, seriously, if anyone else has the urge to do it too, ill start if you promise to follow. Lol...

And speaking of being kinda loopy, i had Chemistry last hour. There are two sophomores, three seniors, and a bunch of juniors, so Mrs. Williams made us do this ACT prep test thing. Im so sitting there, trying to do this retarded standardized test (which btw, i decided i have an ethical problem with standardized tests. we are all different. why give us the same retarded test?). So, im sitting there, i get to a question about kruat. It has something to do with water and limestone and seeping through the earth. Idk really. But the paragraph is like four inches long and im trying to read it but the words are all kinda of out of focus and swimming around. I get to the question, "which of the following phenomenons can easily be classified as kruat?" and im like "omg. wait. what is kruat?" so i had to go back and read it again. I kept getting distracted and i once found myself staring off into space, actually thinking 'this is like on tv where the character stares off with a blank look on their face and you can hear their thoughts and its completely random...' It was the worst test of my life. I think its time to go home and sleep...

<3-...ill sign later...

Its Too Loud

Im sitting in Consumer Ed. And I feel...sick...sort of. Actually, im insanely worn out--if i closed my eyes for point five seconds, id be out like a light. And i have splitting headache. I wish everybody would stfu and quit making noise. Its so loud in here. I didnt know it was possible to be this loud. Its making my head hurt worse...actually im typing kinda loud. Grr. Guess im gonna have to work on that one...I think im just imagining the loudness. No one else notices how loud im typing. *looks around* Yep just me...Wow. Im sick...But its not like im sick to my stomach or anything...Its like a hangover minus the nausea (not that i would know or anything...)...Idk whats wrong w/ me, but its terrible. I cant get anything done this way. Last night when i went home from scholar bowl, i ate leftover pepperoni and pinapple pizza from the night before, attempted to do my trig (i gave up after two problems), and went to bed at eight o'clock. Man, I suck. This is ridiculous...

<3-oh, sick one.

Cloverfield/Little Shop Of Horrors

Okay. So...went to go see Cloverfield last night...

The movie is sort of like a documentary of these friends throwing their friend a going away party on the night when something attacks NYC. The beginning is completely stupid. It does have significance to part of the plot of the rest of the movie, but in all reality, the beginning still sucked. I was thinking "wow. why am i here" like the entire freaking time...Um, once the thing attacked the city it was better, i guess. At least it was interesting then. But you never really find out what the thing is (contrary to some opinions ive heard, it is not Godzilla. Dont believe that) and you never find out if they stop it and if i could say more without giving it away, i would...

But, basically, it sucked. The previews looked good, but i would give it, like, a B-.

And also, does anyone know what Little Shop Of Horrors is? Apparently its a movie and a play. I had never heard of it until i was texting Brandon last night while me and Scott were at Pizza Hut. He quoted from it and i was like "never heard of it" and he was real surprised by that. I asked Scott and hes heard of it but never seen the whole thing. And i asked my mom this morning. She heard of it. Even my little brother has heard of it. So apparently im deprived. Now i have to see this movie. So if anyone knows what Little Shop Of Horrors is and/or more importantly where i can get it/borrow it from so i can watch it, let me know.

<3-Possum

HELP!

So, I have Ill Be by Edwin McCain stuck in my head.

And I dont know all the words.

I blame Kristen Michele.

She was playing it on her phone yesterday at scholar bowl.

Does anyone know all the words?

Or have it on their iPod so i can listen and make it go away?

No one Ive talked to does.

It is driving me crazy.

K. Thx.

I Got My Prom Dress

Presented with nothing to do, nowhere to go, and a day off last Saturday, i decided to go look at prom dresses. And i do mean look. Prom is April 26. Its months away. I had no intention whatsoever of buying a dress. I really just wanted to get an idea of what i wanted, because it usually takes twenty stores and ten thousand dresses before i make up my mind...

The first place i went was A Special Occasion in West Frankfort and i have never bought a dress there before. I never really find anything i like, but i thought i would look. I looked around, picked out a few dresses and tried them on. I wasnt real happy with any of them and i was about to say "lets leave" when my mom was like "what about this one?" On the rack, i didnt really like the color and i didnt really like the shape and i was like "blah" but i tried it on anyway and i was like "OMG. This is the dress"...So i bought it...

Its kind of like an tealy-aquamarine color and pretty poofy with like blue and green netting and a little bit of beading on the bottom. The top has a lot of silvery beading all over it, and its strapless and laces down in the back. Its absolutely gorgeous.

Its basically like a miracle that i found a dress so soon and at the first place i went. The problem is that i cant gain any weight between now and prom. Looks like i better start doing sit ups.

So...has anyone else got their dress yet?